amazing love how can it be?

God loves me so much. He is giving me such a wonderful basket of blessings I do not know where to start.

I have a wonderful group of women who are coming to my home to share experiences, love, support, and learn about the Bible and how we look to God.
What a wonderful thing this is - an answer to my prayers for sure - that I would be able to have Bible Studies in my home. And now it's happening. Praise God!
Lord, guide the study so that we learn what You want us to learn.

My prayers now are to thank God in advance for healing me from head to toe.
In one day, three people prayed that I would be healed from head to toe. First, Pastor Chris. Then, Holly. and then, Sister Ann. So that is, I guess, my new year's resolution. To be healed. To believe I am healed. To believe that not only CAN God do it (which I never doubted) but that He WILL do it. This has been a big struggling point for me - with all the things wrong with my human earthly body (which I consider simply a shell for my spirit, which is eternal and beautiful)... I had come to feel that God COULD heal me but had decided not to do it for some reason. Perhaps I thought it was "my cross to bear". Perhaps I believed I was like Job, and the enemy was asking permission to add suffering after suffering to me to see if I would turn from God.

I have not turned from God. I have yelled at Him (I'm sorry Lord, please forgive me) and been angry at Him, (such arrogance, to be angry at the Almighty Creator of the Universe), but I have never turned from Him and have always felt Him by my side.

Praise His Glorious Name! I love God so much, sometimes it is hard for me to worship without bursting into tears. I love my church so much but I wish I could infuse the worship with more of the joy of knowing Christ, more of the energy of the Spirit of God, more time just glorifying God not just singing a song.

We have the blessing of babysitting our friend Ellie's dog, Lozen, and she has been such a blessing to me. She's part malamute and part wolf hybrid and she's so beautiful in looks and in spirit. She is so sweet! Very loving and kind of shy. The kitties are almost used to her. I expect them to be cuddling with her soon. She's very gentle with them... likes them a lot.

She's been a blessing to Thomas, too. His first experience living with a dog of any kind. So he has been doing a lot of learning and he's really enjoying her, despite his having trouble with her jumping up on him. She's very submissive and has trouble with piddling when she is excited to see Tom. She only does it with men - a man abused her before Ellie got her. She's a wonderful dog, very well behaved, and a joy to have around. What fun. She makes me want a doggie or hope that maybe Ellie will let us be her family.

I am rejoicing that the biopsy of the lump that was taken from my breast was benign - praise the Lord! That was kind of scary. Monday I get the stitches out and then soon I'll be able to get into the hot tub and pool again. Hooray! I can't wait to start my workouts. We go January 20 to get the assessment so we know what to do and where to start with our exercise program. I am praying that God will empower me to go as many times as He wants me to go so I can get strong enough to really take care of my gardens this year. How wonderful that would be! Not to have to stop in the middle and rest more than I work. To be able to run the sweeper and be strong enough to dig my own holes to plant things...

I am also rejoicing because I am going to have injections in my neck. I am asking God to make them work so that my neck doesn't drive me nuts with pain anymore. Please, God, guide the hand of the doctor so that the medicine goes where it is supposed to go. Please, Lord, help me to be healed through these injections.

I am in the midst of cutting out the mats on Molly cat. She has dreadlocks and there doesn't seem to be an end in sight for her. Poor little thing. She doesn't like me messing with her fur, but I know she will be more comfortable if I can get those mats off her back. The rest of her is so beautiful and then we can brush her each day... Hope that will help her never to have painful mats again.

I am praying for Tom's work. Nothing I can specify but I do want God to guide Tom's work as to where and when he should work and for how much. I know God has a plan.

I am praying for good health also so that we can go on a mission trip with our church in June. I am good at painting and love to do it - I would love to be able to help another church as we were helped by the Baptist Builders. WOW! What a blessing.

I wonder if Newman would benefit from a mission trip like that. Would it infuse the church with the kind of love and spirit it needs to stay alive?

I start Tuesday to take voice lessons. They've been postponed but I really want to do it so that I can offer up my voice in the very best way to God. I feel I may have some songs in my heart to give to the world and I need to have my voice the best it can be so there is a better chance that the messages will be heard.
I need to learn to play the piano better... I haven't practiced and we haven't gotten the piano tuned, so it's kind of difficult right now. I'd really like to have the piano tuned, maybe for my birthday.

I think for my 50th birthday, I should have an open house. But it will be cold on my birthday so we won't be able to use the patio room as much... so I wonder where we should have the happy celebration - maybe at church??? In the fellowship hall?? What fun. And what a wonderful place to have it.

Now, what to eat... ? Shall it be a covered dish or shall we just have cake and ice cream and punch and water and coffees and that stuff? I would love to invite the family and at least have B's family come and celebrate!! Maybe we could have a spaghetti dinner? I just don't know how to make it a truly wonderful celebration. God please show me what would most honor You.

I am so happy that I have been able to cultivate my relationship with Sister Ann Bates. She is such a wonderful mentor to me. Everyone needs a mentor. Everyone needs someone they can ask questions about stuff that matters. About God and how to cope with trials and tribulations.

I pray, dear Lord, in gratitude for Your Amazing Love. Thank you for giving Your live so I can spend eternity with You. Show me how to glorify You. Help me learn to enjoy You and be a person You entirely enjoy. Father, please show me what I need to do to bless those around me. Help me speak gentle words to everyone, but especially my precious husband, who you have given to me, as my partner in life and my best friend and my own heart. Help me, Lord, to support him, to respect him, to bless him in every way possible. Help me create a home where peace reigns, Lord. Grant us peace. Let my home be a place of solace and joy and enjoyment and love. Release Your spirit to infuse our lives with Your beauty.

Please, dear Lord, heal my body from head to toe. Please heal my painful headaches, that keep me from thinking straight and even seeing properly. Please heal my painful neck, allow the injections to work and fix the problem, and lay Your hand on my shoulders which are so painful. Heal them, Lord. Give me back my strength in my hands so that I can do things like peel potatoes and make dinner.
Please take away the pain in my middle back, Lord. Help me to find a way to release the tension in the muscles so that I am no longer in pain. Please heal my lower back so it is strong and I can stand at the sink to wash the dishes without taking a break. Heal me so I can garden without pain.

Heal the bursa in my operated knee, Lord, and please take away the pain in that knee. Thank you that it is a strong knee that I can count on to carry me to and from where I need to go, and help me to overcome the pain so I can go up and down the stairs. Take the pain away, Lord! Make the knee perfect. I ask that you would continue to take care of the other knee, that the supartz medication would do its job and keep me from hurting in that knee. Please heal the corrosion of the plate and six pins in my ankle.

Heal the high blood pressure, Lord. Take down my cholesterol to a healthy level. Help me to breath freely without having to inhale with albuterol. Help me get my diabetes under control and even that You would take it away, Lord, I would ask. Please heal the muscles that control my bladder that I might become normal in that area, too, Lord.

Remove from me the fibromyalgia, that I might be able to work at a normal job and make a good salary so that I can contribute to our household and get us out of debt so we can live better according to Your ways.

Help me take the time every day to spend time in Your word, Lord. Call me to Your side so that I will pray every day. Break me so that I can become the beautiful person You have meant me to be. Mold me, make me whole, Lord, I pray.

Empower me to help others, Lord. Empower me to spread the gospel to the lost, whether it's in the grocery store or the people I meet online or anywhere, Lord. Make me bold in witnessing, strong in my faith so that I can help others come to know You more.

Grant me the ability to present the good news so that others can understand and accept it.

Thank you Jesus, I believe with all my heart that because I have prayed these things in Your name, You will do it. I trust, in Your timing and Your will and Your way.

Thanks for Your amazing Love, Father.

Amazing love, how can it be that my King should die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true, it's my joy to honor You in all I do
I worship You
You are my King
You are my King
Jesus, You are my King.

I bless you Lord, with all my heart. May my love be a fragrant offering to You, O God, Heavenly Father, Price of Peace, Lord of Lords, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Alpha and Omega... my wonderful Savior, Lord of my heart.
Love,
Janie