Overwhelmed by work

Just wanting to vent a little here. I have been dealing with a lot of physical issues since we returned from California and I can't do as I would like to do in taking care of my home... and my yard... and it is overwhelming. I have enough work to keep Merry Maids working all day - all three of the gals who would come. I have enough yard work to keep four big strong young men busy and tired all day long for two or three days and still it would not be "acceptable" or at least not by my standards of what things should be.

I know some people think I am being too hard but I look at other people's homes and their yards and none look as scruffy as mine.

I want to have order, not chaos. I want a kitchen table that is not covered with papers 24/7/365. I want to be able to cook without having to do a huge house cleaning beforehand. I want to have people over without having to run around like a chicken with no head trying to neaten up the piles of papers and messes everywhere. I want my laundry to be relatively done - not piled up in the basement like a dungeon.

But my body won't do it and we can't afford to pay people and my husband is working so hard for us outside our home that I hesitate to ask for his help. I really am at my wits' end here and don't know what to do about it.

If you are a praying person and reading this, please pray for peace and order in my home. And my yard. And my head.

Thanks.